This is my curse. It follows me everywhere I go, lurking in the shadows of my mind. It is a constant reminder of my past mistakes, my insecurities, and my fears. It weighs heavy on my soul, a burden I cannot seem to shake. At times, it feels like a dark cloud hanging over me, casting a shadow on every aspect of my life. It envelops me in its grip, suffocating any glimmers of hope or happiness that try to emerge.
It envelops me in its grip, suffocating any glimmers of hope or happiness that try to emerge. It whispers in my ear, taunting me with its relentless negativity. My curse is a culmination of all my self-doubts and criticisms.
Amityville Horror: Horror or Hoax?
Oct. 31 -- When George and Kathy Lutz moved into the three-story colonial in Amityville on New York's Long Island in December 1975, they were thrilled.
The sprawling house at 112 Ocean Ave. had cost them just $80,000, and they loved it. "It was a dream come true," George Lutz remembers.
True, the house had been the scene of a horrible multiple murder a little over a year before, when 23-year-old Ronnie DeFeo went from room to room methodically shooting his parents and his four brothers and sisters in their beds. But the Lutzes sat down with their three young children and agreed the family could handle it.
Just in case though, the day they moved in they had a priest, Father Ray Pecoraro, bless the house. According to Lutz, the priest said he felt an unseen hand slap him in the sewing room and heard a voice say "Get out." Then, Lutz says, Pecoraro became ill with flu-like symptoms and his hands began to bleed.
The family moved in anyway, but within days they began to notice strange phenomena.
"There were . odors in the house that came and went," Lutz says. "There were sounds. The front door would slam shut in the middle of the night. I couldn't get warm in the house for many days."
Lutz says the family kept the fireplace burning day and night in a futile attempt to stay warm, and found strange gelatinous drops on the carpet when they woke up in the morning. At times, he claims, his wife was physically transformed into an old woman, with the face, hair and wrinkles of a 90-year-old.
Lutz claims that he mysteriously woke at 3:15 a.m. almost every day — around the same time the DeFeo murders were believed to have happened. One night, he says, he heard his children's beds "slamming up and down on the floor" above him but he was unable to do anything because he was immobilized in bed by an unseen force. Later that night, he woke to see his wife levitating and moving across the bed, he says.
The next morning, just 28 days after they moved in, the Lutz family fled the house, leaving their clothes in the closets and food in the refrigerator. If the family had not left, Lutz says, he believes something horrible would have happened. "I try not to think about it," he says.
It magnifies every flaw, every perceived failure, and amplifies them to unreachable heights. It convinces me that I am not worthy of love, success, or happiness. It tells me that I am destined to repeat my past mistakes, that I am doomed to a life of misery. But amidst the darkness, there is a small voice, a flicker of light that refuses to be extinguished. It is the voice of resilience, of hope. It tells me that my curse does not define me, that I have the power to break free from its grasp. So I fight. I fight against the negative thoughts and the self-destructive patterns. I surround myself with positive influences and seek out the support of loved ones. I remind myself of my strengths and accomplishments, no matter how small they may seem. It is a battle, a daily struggle to overcome the weight of my curse. But I refuse to let it consume me. I refuse to surrender to its darkness. I am determined to rewrite my narrative, to turn my curse into a catalyst for growth and self-discovery. This is my curse, but it will not define me. I will rise above it, stronger and more resilient than ever before. And in doing so, I will transform my curse into my greatest strength..
Reviews for "Breaking the Curse of Unforgiveness: Steps to Emotional Healing"
- John - 2 stars
I found "This is my curse" to be a disappointing read. The plot was predictable and lacked originality. The characters were one-dimensional and I couldn't connect with any of them. The writing style felt repetitive and the dialogue felt forced. Overall, I was expecting more from this book and I wouldn't recommend it.
- Sarah - 1 star
I really did not enjoy "This is my curse". The story dragged on and I found myself losing interest multiple times. The characters were unlikeable and their actions didn't make sense. The romance felt forced and unrealistic. The writing was mediocre at best and I found myself skimming through paragraphs to get to the end. I wouldn't recommend this book to anyone looking for an engaging and well-written story.
- Mike - 2 stars
"This is my curse" was a letdown for me. The plot had potential but it wasn't executed well. The pacing was off and there were too many unnecessary details that slowed down the story. The main character was annoying and lacked depth. The dialogue felt unnatural and the writing style was lackluster. Overall, I was disappointed with this book and wouldn't recommend it to others.
- Emily - 1 star
I couldn't get into "This is my curse" at all. The story lacked substance and the characters were forgettable. The writing was dull and there were too many cliches throughout. The romance felt forced and I couldn't invest in the relationship. I found myself skipping pages just to get through it. I would not recommend this book to anyone.